I guess must one of you guys wondering whats with the The Ugly Duck Tale is all about.I bet all of you guys know about the story of the ugly duck because we always listen it when we were kids.For me this ugly duck story is perfect for me,i'm the ugly duck.Seriusly right now i felt that i'm really a ugly duck.I'm hurt inside and out.Yeah this post its about today,about the guy who i like,doesn't even noticed me,who were standing beside him.Before i start,i want to say that i never angry at YOU,sayang.This have nothing to do with you,i love you more than i love him..wait i don't love him..hahahhahahaha :) so don't need to feel bad or guilty,ok sayang.The reason why i feel so hurted and sad is after this thing happen,suddenly 3 things popped in my mind which is 'Am i that ugly ?' 'Am i that fat ?' 'Am i not pretty?'.I can't help it to think on and on about it.
It happen when me and my sayang were having this small chat with this guy and i kinda like him and i feel that there's a chance for me to know him better.It makes me so damn hyper and gedik ( hahahha yes i admit it ) but everything turned to blue when he seem to be more interested with my sayang.Everything turned more to blue when he asked my sayang's number.Oh damn,you don't know how crush i am.Yeah i know i told you guys that i'm ok with it and it was nothing but deeply inside i was crying.I'm sorry i'm lying to you guys and YOU.I can't tell you guys the truth because i'm ashamed and i don't want to burst out in tears so i pretend that i'm ok
Seriously i'm not mad or jealous or what.It just that god ! i don't know how i want to explain.Its not that i love him,it just that it make me feel that i'm so freaking ugly till no guys want to look or like me.My heart oh only gods knows how i felt.I know i said that i don't need boys in my life but i can't help it want to be in love and to be love by someone.With my physical,i know no man will even look at me.I'm fat,my face have pimples and.......i'm crying right now,you don't know how sad am i.Here i am sitting in my room and crying alone,well i prefer like this,here by myself because only me can make myself happy.Its not that i don't trust my family or friend, i don't want show them MY SAD ME infront of them.
I was crying just now and my cat,Kaka was beside me and he was looking straight into my eyes.I guess he know that i was crying.I prefer crying infront of my cat because they can't talk or critic me,they will only look and look without trying to advice or judge me.Maybe this is just a small matter and please my dear friend don't judge or critic me for not saying this infront of you guys,thats was the last thing i want from you guys,let just pretend it never happen and YOU,keep going if there was a chance for you and him,i'm happy for you.Don't feel guilty or what,My feeling is not important ok :)
By the way,please don't be angry with me,i know i being a silly girl but if you in my place,you will understand it.But no matter what I LOVE YOU GUYS MORE THAN I LOVE ANY BOYS,REMEMBER THAT !
P.S : Give me 1 day and i bet my mood will be ok and hyper as always :) so don't need to worry about me.I'm fine and i know how to make myself happy :D
It happen when me and my sayang were having this small chat with this guy and i kinda like him and i feel that there's a chance for me to know him better.It makes me so damn hyper and gedik ( hahahha yes i admit it ) but everything turned to blue when he seem to be more interested with my sayang.Everything turned more to blue when he asked my sayang's number.Oh damn,you don't know how crush i am.Yeah i know i told you guys that i'm ok with it and it was nothing but deeply inside i was crying.I'm sorry i'm lying to you guys and YOU.I can't tell you guys the truth because i'm ashamed and i don't want to burst out in tears so i pretend that i'm ok
Seriously i'm not mad or jealous or what.It just that god ! i don't know how i want to explain.Its not that i love him,it just that it make me feel that i'm so freaking ugly till no guys want to look or like me.My heart oh only gods knows how i felt.I know i said that i don't need boys in my life but i can't help it want to be in love and to be love by someone.With my physical,i know no man will even look at me.I'm fat,my face have pimples and.......i'm crying right now,you don't know how sad am i.Here i am sitting in my room and crying alone,well i prefer like this,here by myself because only me can make myself happy.Its not that i don't trust my family or friend, i don't want show them MY SAD ME infront of them.
I was crying just now and my cat,Kaka was beside me and he was looking straight into my eyes.I guess he know that i was crying.I prefer crying infront of my cat because they can't talk or critic me,they will only look and look without trying to advice or judge me.Maybe this is just a small matter and please my dear friend don't judge or critic me for not saying this infront of you guys,thats was the last thing i want from you guys,let just pretend it never happen and YOU,keep going if there was a chance for you and him,i'm happy for you.Don't feel guilty or what,My feeling is not important ok :)
By the way,please don't be angry with me,i know i being a silly girl but if you in my place,you will understand it.But no matter what I LOVE YOU GUYS MORE THAN I LOVE ANY BOYS,REMEMBER THAT !
P.S : Give me 1 day and i bet my mood will be ok and hyper as always :) so don't need to worry about me.I'm fine and i know how to make myself happy :D
